I am grateful for the love we had, Kris. I know how lucky I was to find Ben later in life. I know it was best that he left this earth first. What I don't know is why I am a pariah to other people now. Ben and I did so much to help others, and I am not experiencing the same. Other than a causual Hi, how are you, no one pays any mind to me. It makes the grief so much worse.