I am so sorry about your splintered family, Christine, but mostly about the tragic passing of your sister.
Please don't feel bad for me. My blood family was not healthy for me. I never felt like I belonged with them. There are so many stories I could share. If I didn't look like them, I would believe I was adopted! Yes, there were hurtful times, but I am much happier without them. I created the family I need and want. A family that appreciates me. Now, I have a family here on Medium, too. I have no regrets.