I have felt like this since Trump’s election. I don’t want to be in this world as it is. I’ve never felt so disillusioned and disgusted with my fellow countrymen and humans in general. Like you, I won’t do anything to stop my life but I feel it is futile. Simply going through the motions with great reluctance. To please others, I act “normal” when I feel anything but. My greatest fear is watching our democracy being shredded and knowing my grandchildren will face a chaotic future in a world of avarice, hate, bigotry, and violence.