I have no new advice, Katwell. I can relate, though — well, my younger self would relate. My older self doesn’t obsess over weight anymore. One of the joys of aging!
So, you’ve heard/read all I can say/write here. I won’t waste my time rehashing what someone else has said better and with more authority than me. And, in your present state, the response would be eye-rolling, as would be mine.
Instead, I’ll say good work for all you’ve accomplished. The rest will come when it is supposed to and when you are ready for it.
And, lastly, I’ll send a hug from Florida where those trying to lose weight get to watch insanely thin women parade in bikinis.