I love baking, Christine. It's relaxing for me, and Ben never expects me to bake anything. He always tells me I don't have to bake for him. I bake because I enjoy it, and it gives me pleasure to prepare something he enjoys. If I'm tired, I choose an easy recipe that I will still enjoy baking.
After working, baking clears my mind. It is therapy for me.

We split chores. With his eyesight issues he's terrible at vacuuming and mopping, so those are my jobs. Dishes are his job. I gather trash and recycling, while he breaks down boxes and takes the bins to the pickup area. I handle laundry and dusting because I enjoy both. He makes the bed. He cooks the meats he eats and I make his salad. When he's not at dialysis, he walks Syau at least once a day, sometimes two or three times if I'm working or too tired.

I'm so sorry you are not well and can't sleep. I hope you are able to improve as the weather warms, and I hope you can get out in nature, even for short periods, soon. I know how much you love it.