Oh, Zach, what you are experiencing is, to some degree, normal for everyone. I know you don’t feel normal because being different than the average makes us feel so abnormal. But, truly, no one likes their body when it’s sick or hospitalized or being probed, prodded, and poked. No one likes being vulnerable and exposed. Maybe your body is outside the range of normal but your feelings are not.
Your honesty is what’s abnormal, gloriously and wonderfully abnormal, and we need more and more of it.
Keep getting better one cell and one moment at a time, keep being you in all your magnificence, and keep writing.
You have a lot more support than you realize. Absorb it. Use it.
Hugs from Florida 🌴