This piece wrapped around my heart like a warm blanket, Pacifica. Although a different situation from yours, my husband has been sick and hospitalized and had a bad fall and hospitalized this year. It's been a tough time for both of us. I can empathize with your situation. I understand your need to immortalize the times of your stress and concern. Your words captured it beautifully and sadly. I felt your fear, worry, and hope in each word of this post.