Tre, your post left me breathless with a stranglehold on my heart. Yet, I was still rejoicing because the words are yours and you are once again in our community. How many times I’ve opened Medium hoping for evidence of your return!
I am sorry for your sadness and disappointment and all the other pain you feel at this moment. I have no power to remove the weight you are carrying but perhaps it helps, just a little, for you to know that you and your creativity are treasured in this space.
And, maybe, a virtual hug from Florida will help, just a little.